5号公寓住的水蜜桃

一女友立誓要看画皮，而且热爱上了主题曲。以下为其先生的留言。

昨天我还在滥用我的同情。

今天---

Matthew，要是按照budget charge 时间恐怕所有的加起来我才工作了两天半呐。

哦不用担心，该怎么掐就怎么掐。不管怎么样只要我给你的review是好的，manager管不着的。

按照你的步骤工作好了，有什么事儿还有我这个senior顶着。

 我觉得自己很愚蠢。为什么会有想罩着人家的想法呢？

我怎么又想到把Little Bear带来了呢？

往常也是4天不是箱子都塞满衣服了么？这回怎么又恰好多出一只熊的位置？

Little Bear啊，为了使你不受虐待，我每天都要早早的准备好小费。

有时候我好希望怀里抱的是仔仔。

我从来没有过这样复杂的心情，面对一个和我共事的人。

我必须用十分的注意力才能听得清楚他讲话，我必须要面对着他才能让他明白我讲的话。

有时候我要喊好几遍他才知道我在叫他，有时候他必须得spell out他要表达的意思。

为了方便联系，我在email里留了我的电话，他却没有告诉我他的。

如果在一起的人多了，很容易就在谈话中忽略了他。

我最害怕在他开车的时候同他交谈，因为他会转过头来，不理会道路。

在他帮我开了车门或者提了箱子的时候，我的感谢总是被他忽略。

窗外的雷雨声总是不能引起他的注意。

因为他是一个听力有障碍的人。

耳朵上挂的那只小耳朵充其量不过让他对自己的名字敏感，以至于我们叫他的名字的时候，他会有所感觉。

因为听力的限制，他的发音不标准，但是足以让我一个外国人明白意思。也是同样的理由，他只能阅读唇语。

手机对他来说除了text message并没有太大的意义，这就是为什么他不告诉我他的联系方式。但是因为我的初来乍到，他说如果我找不到路了就一定message他问路。

同样的理由，他在开车的时候必须得转过头来交谈，以至于我不得不提醒他说:Matthew，绿灯亮了。

我说感谢的时候，总是忘记了我不是正对着他。

客户跑进来跟我们讲外面下了大雨的时候，他才忽然抬起头来说：哦，我居然没有注意到。其实我早就在旁边说过：Matthew，我们今天只能安心加班了。

我对他带有十万分的尊重和佩服，我讨厌自己也带着同样的怜悯。我设想每一个吐字发音背后有多少心血，多少痛苦或者眼泪，每当看到他struggle的时候我都克制自己不要说出他要说的话。我怪我自己为什么不能像对待一个普通人那样对待他，为什么要强加给别人我泛滥的同情。虽然我很清楚最好的尊重就是不要当他是一个弱者而给与特别的关照。

他很喜欢跟我们交谈，喜欢跟我们讲好笑的事。也许只有他提起他念大学的时候为了踢橄榄球努力健身才被认为服用Steroid，他宿醉之后把洗衣服的篮子当成了马桶，我才试图设想他作为普通人的一面。

希望明天的我不会再想说努力帮他多做一份事，而是说：Matthew, 我们去starbucks买咖啡吧，你不是说你太太最喜欢starbucks的热巧克力么。

有人总是抱怨说我很暴力，说什么古今中外比我凶残的女子真不多见。笑话，此人中文大字不识几个，连中国人都不认识多少，还敢博古通今。他说我语言上的粗暴姑且不提，行为举止也相当的残暴。我承认我确实有一些不太雅观的行为，比如跑步的时候踢人，对着某人的肚子连续出拳，或者闲来无聊非要扭着某人的脖子摔跤。话说回来，我一介女流， 无任何武打气功以及体育修行，能有多大力气，纵使小宇宙燃烧到极致，杀伤力几何呀？更何况我的对手是何人呐？空手道冠军。我能伤得了他？不过就是借机切磋武艺而已。何必较真。

你为什么就是不能温柔一点呐？你看人家多讲话多可爱的？

关键是你说的人家是指谁？叫我学谁？

小严姑娘。

小严姑娘是谁呀？某人的魂系梦萦的梦中情人呗。不提也罢。

于是我用尽毕生最温柔的腔调说：KK,你是不是想挨揍了呀？

从昨天下午开始因为开门，前台的人已经不知道笑了我多少次了。而且每次只要他注意到我要出门或者进门，就会准备好了在旁边看笑话。

我总是出错。开门能错到哪里去？我也是这么想的，可是我总是试图去推开那扇不能固定不能开的门，或者就是拼命的推本应拉开的门。结果是一样的，我心急火燎的和那扇门拼了，挣扎半天之后，我开始怀疑我是不是进错了门。

前台的人说：不知道你怎么如此坚持的一次次犯同样的错误。

上帝说一扇门对你关闭的时候，另一扇门就会像敞开。但是如果一扇门就是打不开呢？

I am waiting for you to come back in victory, my hero!

生日那天有人送了我礼物，叫我好好布置我（们）的新家，心里窃喜。

我决定以后每年的生日都照一张照片。5年之后做一次总结。我希望每一张照片都不是我一个人在里面。

有人说他知道我许了什么愿，怎么会呢？我明明什么都没有说，那个时候又是忙着关灯又是为了照相摆pose，都还没有来得及好好组织语言，幸好许愿也只是说给自己听的。问题是：什么出卖了我的愿望？！

那天关于我岁数的个位数的蜡烛找不到了，于是将就用了代表去年年龄的蜡烛。

又过了一年。

七只火蚂蚁叮了我的脚趾头，以至于我的右脚几乎像长了七个指头那么大。不仅如此，脚背肿到除了人字拖之外的鞋子都塞不进去。被叮咬的地方出现一个发亮的小泡泡，脚趾们个个红肿的像冬天里的胡萝卜，不过这样的萝卜是拔不动的，因为指头太肿了，根本弯不了。最痛苦的是，不能抓不能挠，搞不好感染了，连小命都丢掉。比起左脚来，右脚更像一只刚出炉播了皮的烤红薯。为什么偏偏是右脚而我开车又非得用右脚不可呢？

什么叫痒不欲生尝过么？每当走路的时候裤脚不小心擦过脚面，我就如同被电击了一样，如果不以迅雷不及掩耳盗铃之势使劲掐自己的腿，倘若疼痛遏制不住即将迸发的痒，一触即发，一发即死。止痒药膏也是要用手涂上去的，手指碰到皮肤也是要痒的，要让药膏在痒随着神经散布开来之前发挥效用不大可能，所以横竖都是一痒。

我说，冬瓜，Amelia也是同样的被咬了呀，不过只有一个，为什么就我厉害成这样呢？

冬瓜说，人家吃腻了美国菜，吃吃川菜换个口味不行呀。

Her: Pretty soon the media will have another hot topic. If the Olympics were in the US, people would protest and boycott because of the war in Iraq.
All countries have committed crimes and violated human rights at some point in their history. As the country that is hosting the Olympics, China needs to remember that they will be scrutinized and criticized for its past and present stances on human rights. Being patriotic and supporting a country is fine, but not admitting to the bad things is wrong.
I'm proud to be an American, but I know and acknowledge the bad things the US has done; to deny it would only make me seem foolish.
China has improved, and you should continue to tell people about its accomplishments because most people will only listen to the negative and focus on the trouble in Tibet.

Me: I agree if Olympics were in the U.S. people would protest and boycott because of the war in Iraq. But there is huge difference. How many Americans are against the war? More than 50%. How many Chinese people protesting against China regarding Tibet? 1 out of 1.3 billion. We are NOT denying we did wrong regarding Tibet, because we did nothing wrong. Is 4 billion RMB revenue from tourism is wrong? Letting Tibetans go to the best universities in China regardless how well they did on entrance-exam is discrimination? Recruiting people all over the country to work in Tibet is attacking? Yes, we are continuously telling with our hearts to the world what’s true about Tibet. But how many people listened? If the media is telling lies, within a minute millions would believe.

Yes, to deny is stupid. But to lie is vicious because it fools the public. If you get this idea only from your government/media, I feel too sorry. Have you ever listened to those former Tibetan serfs whose hands/arms were chopped off? Have you ever read their bible about human sacrifice? Do you know when there was a ceremony, little boys were killed and skins were peeled? Some of the evidence has been documented in the Potala palace. Just a month ago in Lhasa, some Tibetans set houses on fire, killed 60 people (including Tibetans), and bombed policy cars. Who on earth violated human rights? That's what really happened in history and you can read/see with your own eyes. Why don’t your media tell you about that? In fact, if you Wikipedia “Potala Palace”, it will tell you located in Lhasa, Tibet Autonomous Region of the People's Republic of China and Dalai Lama fled to Dharamsala, India after an invasion and failed uprising in 1959. If you watch National Geography it would also tell you that Tibet is part of China. But just like you said "most people will only listen to the negative and focus on the trouble in Tibet".

Why is that? Because my country has become the strongest “frenimy” to any country in the world that we shall no longer put up with anyone lying& waving fingers in front of our face and challenging our rights as a country.

Honestly I was not surprised that some people use every single opportunity to attack China. But I was surprised that all Chinese people are so united (not only those living in China, not also those all over the world) that we believe in justice. We do have complaints about our government in many aspects and we have been pushing our government to do better. But as far as Tibet is concerned, 1.3 billion people have only one voice: we love peace more than anyone does but there is only one China.

Tomorrow it will be the lifechanging point.

What's gonna happen after tomorrow? I dont know.

I am keeping my finger crossed for tomorrow.

Little bear, tell me what I should do?

I need to pack clothing for 5 days, as well as matching shoes. If 5 is ridiculous, then at least I have to pack 2.

Then shampoo/conditioner and shower gel, hair straightener. Oh and my snacks. How can I forget.

Beisdes my personal stuff, I have to carry on a computer bag and check in a truck of binders.

So little bear, are you sure you wanna come with me? Being squeezed in the suitcase for 8 hours? Being left at hotel alone.

My little Keke Ma, I will miss you and love you so much.

冬瓜，问你一个问题，一定要在很短的时间之内回答。

好。

杜甫草堂是纪念李白还是诸葛亮？

什么是草堂?

草盖的房子。

杜甫是什么？

诗人。

李白呢？

（OMG）也是诗人。我直接把答案告诉你好不好。

那是纪念李白的。

拜托，杜甫草堂当然是纪念杜甫的呀！要纪念李白不该叫李白草堂了吗?

哎呀，你干嘛问我这种问题嘛!我都不知道他们。

张爱玲：于千万人之中，遇见你要遇见的人。在时间无涯的荒野里，没有早一步，也没有迟一步。
这是前生的注定。

He said if not Z's dad, Z probably would like him.

He said if not the wrong time, he and Y would probably end up being together.

He said he and B would probably stay together, if not...

What I see? I see reasons and results.

No matter good time/bad time,her mum or dad, the "if"s are unavoidable part of them or their lives.

It's those "if"s that turned probable into impossible.

Dont you see?

I do like Orlando. But what's more important than Orlando is the people I met there.

Now we all are going to Orlando again. But they are going in June and I am going in August.

Oh no!~

Hey good news and bad news.

Bad news, always.

We need to foot 30 inventory subtotals and all Columbus.

What's good news then?

We need to foot only 30.

.

Hey good news and bad news.

Good news.

We need to foot 30 subtotals and all for Columbus.

What's bad news?

For both inventory and A/R.

I was waiting to check out when a lady standing besides me said: are you Chinese?

Yes, I am. I responded so.

But you look like Korean.

What the crap! I look like Korean? B4 or after plastic surgery? Either way I feel pissed and offended.

If thats supposed to be compliments, then are you kidding me that Korean are better looking than Chinese?

She herself is not even a Korean, how could she know whom I look like.

Hey Beeoch, check me out, 100% Chinese.

DongGua got a new car. But I want to know more about what he is gonna do with his old truck.

Sell it. Or what?

To me, when you get rid of something, you get rid of memories attached to it at the same time. So what to do with his truck? Our first date, first biking, first kayaking, ...

We can still go biking and kayaking. Yeah yeah, but your new car no longer has that warm, comforting smell. It does not have the word I wrote on the window either. What's most important, you wouldnt hold the door for me to get in since you have the keyless entry.

I know it doesnt make financial sense; it's just me being silly and stubborn. I know, I know, if I need to keep every single memory-recalling thing, I will end up living with tons of junks. Life has to move on with more memories/first time coming along.

It's still hard for me to say bye. But it is time.

"I know the two things you want."

"What do I want? "You asked me.

You wanna be a great doctor and ME!

I knew I was right.

What do I want? Do you know?

I want to be with you.

I  was so prepared for insane shopping in Orlando. But after two hours walking in the crowds, I only got a shirt and a cup of starbucks.

Things I couldnt afford before are still unaffordable, like Dior, Burberry and Fendi. Things like Polo and Coach are not going to hurt my wallet any more. But then you begin to think, if you buy two less Coach, you can afford a Fendi. Do I want 2 Coach or a Fendi?

Now it comes to the point that we shop for things we really need or for good deals.

Fashion is a reflection of personality, taste or jusy my wallet?

I think about the movie " Devil wears prada".  But who wears whom anyway?

Plus, it is a good one. More than money-burning fashion.

At first sight of palm trees, I know I will like Orlando very much.

What a beautiful sign for tropic! My Maldives shouldnt be disappointing, either.

I was once so looking forward to this trip; but not any more.

When reality wears out my passion...

I think I now begin to believe that you love me as much as I love you.

I got this message at the end of year 2007.

It is absolutely great news for 08.

But do tears always come along with joy?

I finally had my own Xmas tree. Well, not my own, but I decorated it.

I put the lights on it, I put the Xmas decor on it, and I lit it up!

This is gonna be my first Xmas in America, my first one with DongGua,

My dear, happiness is around me.

DongGua: I want to have a puppy.

Me: Why?

Dogs are the best friend of man.

Well, dogs are best friend of woman, too.

Diamonds are women's best friend.

Thats partly true. But diamonds never love me back.

I named my polar bear Ma Keke. Or Keke Ma is good too. I brought him to Meridian on a business trip, because I couldnt sleep without holding him in my arms.

During the day when I went out to work, he was alone in the hotel. After I got back, the room was extraordinarily clean and organized. Surprisingly, tips left on the table remained untouched. My dearest Keke Ma was sitting in the bed, smiling to me. 

I would rather believe the reason why the housekeeper didnt take the tips was that Ma Keke is such a cutie.

When I asked Morgan to give me some bangs, he seemed so happy to see someone want it, which in his opinion represents high fashion and edge.

I love those two words which is truely my personality and style. What's confusing is, people often misinterpret it as being cute. When DongGua said I looked cute with new haircut, I tried to correct him with my hair dresser's comments "beautiful and confident woman go for bangs." When my neighbour said my haircut was cute, I, again, backed myself up with Morgan's words. Someone in mall tried to get my number. Surely he failed because he said I looked cute. Dammit! How many more times do I have to say!

Is that people misinterpret me or I dont full understand myself?

When I didnt have enough warm clothes last week, it froze my nose off.

When I packed a whole suitcase of sweaters, it became hot again. Dammit!

Among all those I accidently "kissed" on facebook, you are the only one who hide my kiss.

Among all those who wished you "happy birthday" on your wall, I'm the only one who didnt get even a "thank you".

Is that real you hate facebook stupid applications?